A day of "Househusband" life

It's a " househusband" day that I hate today the most but this day did let me know something. So, I was busy doing house chores since morning until evening and I felt like if my future is staying in a house and did those SAME house chores everyday, I will get crazy!!!

Of course, every human wish to cheer everyone up by doing the things they ask you to do so and I am the one who always want to do something for my mom like doing some house chores, and for my dad I would like to accompany him and chat with him as many as possible because in the near future September, I will be dispatched to any University that I chosen at Feb 2015.

And now its already 29/5/2015, it left not exactly 4 months anymore. I am worrying about him. However, i know that if we are worrying the things that haven't come yet it's a waste of time. So, what I can do is tried my best to do something for them.

As I said earlier, every human wish to cheer everyone up by doing the things they ask you to do especially the one you cares. However, I might have a choosing difficulty!!! OH NO!!!!

you know, I was a person who are obtuse but dedicated, looks like serious but actually i am kind. unfortunately, not everyone can understand me ... nah it's okay la ... as long as the one you love understand you then it is enough.

back to topic, I mean I wish to something but i cant decide which one should I do first and put priority. Eh, human .. human... why you are so greedy...?

And now only I knew the facts of
You can't cheer everyone up, and when you reach a certain timing, there's something that forces you to growth better in your mind. You must know how to use communication skills to reject others and not too direct that might makes a relationship between a friends or couple or family to be broken.

Moreover, right now, I am being forced by something and pressure from family... I cannot be like the me before. I cannot be like passive, silent, quiet, obedient.

when I recalled back what I did in the past 17 years, I realized that I am too Obedient!!!!!
although that time, I used to convinced my self that I am bad enough because I tried to truancy once or twice.

hahaha so immature that time. but , Now, I will not be that obedient. It's must be a rational explaination and convince only I will hear.

Haha, I am too "clever" enough to follow all the instruction given by mom. Am I a robot in past 17 years?
Muahahahaha .. of course, I will say YES, I AM A ROBOT in past 17 YEARS!!!

For now , after I went to KMK (Matriculation Kedah) I feels like the world outside is different from what my mom told me.

1. Friends are a tools.

Before this, i always think like this. But now i realize friends is actually that can help you to solve problem, stay with you no matter you are happy, or upset or in a depression. She / he will be always be with you.
And Luckily, I do met one of it which is my girl friend, the prettiest and the most beautiful girl in this world, in my heart and in my eyes.
and she is Vivian Kong.

See.. so beautiful right ?

and here's come me BLEK haha

So handsome right ? bahahaha .. yea i am doing this crunchy fried ice cream.. 

haha we were a stranger before going KMK. After that I was deeply attracted by her smile, her action, her voice, her singing, her eyesight, her caring and friendly attitude, her laugh, her motherly ability and ...........

we were having a gap before we deeply know each other.

Before photographer get angry LOL

After photographer get angry...

HAHA this was the different... how we from a stranger and slowly turn into couples together which is my dream too when I started to pay attention on her.

thank Vivian, for being with me every time, every moment in KMK..
I LOVE YOU, Vivian!!!!!

May we are able to stay together till the end of our life. XD
I believe it can, so will you walk with me no matter how hard the road is, how many obstacles are.. I will always be with you and choose you.

You're the special girl that I ever meet.

Let's stay together and be happy every day ~

I am back!!!

Bahahaha, i am back from my matriculation college... YEAH!!!!!!!

Actually, I wanted this post to be the post of my matriculation life...  Baaah ... left it away first... gonna post some emotional stuff here....

I am just wondering how many percent did I have growth since  end of May 2014 to end of April of 2015 ..

From May 2014, I was just a person who are always having a wall to prevent others to come near me because I am a person who are always suspect others is coming near for a purpose, such as gonna use me to help them for some purpose, ask me doing stupid stuff like giving those advertising flyers from house to house like what my teachers ask me to do ...

So. I've been setting a wall for me to prevent others to come near me as well as for me too ...


But, since I have became Vivian Kong friends, I realize that everyone should have a chance, a fair chance for everyone no matter how he or she looks like, how he or she act like. We should gives them a chance to become our friends...  There are no limitation for us to become friends of someone...

Although there might be some jealousy occurs, we are still able to become a friends of each other...

and what she taught me is about "TRUST"

that is not easy to trust somebody, when you are able to trust on somebody, they will be happy and you will feels like the world is going the way you want because when you trust on somebody you will feel relaxed and you will be able to see the world different from your before...

despite my trust wasn't growth much in level  ... but i think i already make it to 40% to trust others dy.... it is a great improvement for me... as we know, we can learn  a bad things in 3 days but when we want to become nice again, it might takes years!!!!

Hence, I believed that i will able to do it until 99% ... where is another 1 % ?
haha that 1% is the way for you to think another method to do something if they betray you.... because when they betray you , you will already have another way or method to prevent it and continue doing the work you want to do....
so never trust on people 100%
but, we can trust on 99 %

Furthermore, she also taught me that never try to lie ... especially those white lies that doesn't come...
From the occurrence we experienced i knew that , what we promised, what we said we have to responsible for it...
Once the words come out from your mouth, you have to carry the responsible for it no matter you are just joking or seriously...
For example, when my friends ask me to go to their room to get back the books, i promised them in 6 minutes i will reach.. but end up i go take it after 5 days...
then i can feel that my friends having a bad impression on me....

so it can be apply in our life too ... in our future too...

we have to be at time even it is a meeting or gathering ... because no one loves to wait others including ... while waiting actually we can do many things, but normally we will spent our time in waiting someone... for the one you wait is valuable to wait then is okay, how about those who are not valuable ... ?

Ended up i can concluded she has taught me that i should be on time.. and do what you have promised... lastly trust on somebody is a easy job but not to trust 100%

Thanks vivian, i can be the one different than before ...
thanks for being with me whole programme of matriculation... i wish to tell you that i love you ...

Stand STRONG!!

Yo, whats new recently??

Its a brand new year leh....

I remember what I planned before but hahahaha..... i can proudly to say that.. I am manage to do 3 out of the 15 below

那个ｌｉｓｔ　是这样的：

１．　１２．３０　前睡觉
２。　每天至少喝够　４　ｌ　的水 
３。　不要把自己的东西给别人制造麻烦
４。　不要再想世上只有自己才能相信，因为还有“朋友”这个东西
５。　把之前堆在书厨的书本看完
６。　把小提琴练好来　ＸＤ　　（靠女啊？ 哈哈）
7。      限定自己一年能够吃20 次快餐罢了
8。      学会左手写字
9。      学会弹钢琴
10。    养成储蓄习惯
11。    学会煮饭（至少10 道）XD
12。    开心时，就大声笑，让人觉得你是sot 的那种 （哈哈）
13。    累时，立马休息，不要拖
14。    的空就关心下朋友？
15。    忘记之前的伤悲吧

let you guess which one bah....
12, 15 3, 11, 8,10

haha...
so now this are the plan to this year
1. showing my love to everyone
2. try to speak more... no need to be a silent reader or silencer there
3. tear off poker face
4. learn how to use colouronogy
5. take care of my parents
6. do my best in teaching people for performance
7. be more caring and observable
8. hug a cat so that I can prevent it come in my room and defecate in my bed.
9. always attach to my tagline ... ngeee as long as you smile, everything will go the way as you want
10. keep calm like Calc LIM

thats all ba ?

haha sorry for long time didn't update blog..
you know recently 24 hours is insufficient for me to use even though i didn't sleep.
so what to do?
well, we"ll see in the future .....
life will still going on.... weeping ... emoing .... happy .... facing and hard ship ... or what else.... you still have to be determined and stand strong so that you can have a better life.... tears only get symphayze from others, but when you stand strong until you achieve your target which mean you are able to caught them in surprise!!

Xarren, you can do it !!!! I believed that !!!! STAND STRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^>^

FIGHT FOR IT!!!!

Buenas Noches, all!!!
 Since I've been leaving this blog for a long time.... I think is the time for me to make this blog up-to-date! So, what happened recently on me ?
Ok... let's see ...

After I gone to kedah, I'm really busying with my study ....

My beloved biology lecturer, nickname given by my classmate --> mask-man Kakashi!! He is really cute in every action. So, what causes me saying so? this is because he keep on repeating the keyword in a certain subtopic to make us remember that so that we can perform well in UPS & PSPM. Yeah, thanks to him, I get an A-solid in my UPS.

However, PsPM is around the corner, I'm still havent start my revision yet, I'm feeling daunted this few weeks, maybe is because I din't study and just keep on playing with my "whity", my laptop in my room. Yea, I think this is one of the causes that makes me feel daunted.

So, I think I have to force myself to study by wearing a mask. Actually, this mask is something that causes you suffer when you breathing in respiratory gas, everyone was staring at you with a weird eyesight which makes you feel that you're a weird person.

However, I've got used with it as at first I was feeling shame by wearing a mask. But now, not anymore as I having a sense of pride while I have this chance to cosplay my beloved lecturer, or maybe this will be a trademark of his students.

So, for not disapointing him, I must make my biology an A-solid in PSPM soon. Not much days left, just 15 days left to my PSPM. Somemore, my MUET is on tomorrow, practice havent done properly once, vocabulary havent strengthen yet, grammar havent correct yet, ....... and alot... really cannot stop thinking the causes makes me feel the lost confidence.

Wait!!!!! I cannot lost my confidence, because I already promised someone here to get band 5 in MUET!!! so, here are some words for me, xarren "Xarren, you can do it, trust yourself, trust on your potential, never try never know how far can you walk... just like yesterday.

Yesterday, you've done the runnning in KAKOM running by running in the whole journey till the end until your director also giving applause to you.. you should feel proud .. and somemore you're great far better than what you think.... so, please don't feel that you're fighting alone, yuppie just find some friends to study with you" Wooooooooooooooooooooow!!!!

Thanks to my inner self telling myself some words here.. LOL .. muahahahaha ok, let's see back the list I made this early year what i've done for the list ....
 Before that, let me tell you again what the list are:
1. sleep before 12.30 am
2. Drink at lest 4 liter of water a day
3. Don't makes trouble to others.
4. Don't feel that you're alone, think about this world there are a thing namely friends..
5. Finish up reading the books inside the book shelves.
6. Practice violin until well
7. A total of 20 times in eating fast food. (ridiculous, sounds like impossible!! )
8. Train your left hand to write some words ( study shown that can become more clever)
9. Learn how to play a piano.
10. Learn at least 10 type of food to cook
11. Inculcate the good habit of saving money
12. Get a paroxysm of laughter when you heard somethings funny to make others feel that you're crazy!
13. Tired? just go sleep, don't force yourself too tight.
14. Try to ask your friends' situation now, as you guys already seperate for a long time since din't study in the same school.
15. Forget the grieve before, think positive in the future... ( Law of attraction !! )

 Ok... let's see what I've done.

No.1 nope havent yet
NO.2 nope... drink only 2 litre of water a day unless i get a sore throat only i drink 6 litre of water a day No.3 Yea, i've done well in this
No.4 Still on the way... but not soon later will be accept the thing called friend.. thanks to her ^_^
No.5 Didn't have free time la... need to focus on my study
No.6 din't have the time for this yet...
No.7 i think until is almost 18 times already
No.8 yeah!! can write .. but the hand writing is terribly ugly...those words i wrote was worse than my cousin in kindergarden .... LOL
No.9 haha... didn't touched piano yet.
No.10 haha this one, i already learn 5 dishes ba... 1st one is milo puding, 2nd one, kebab, 3rd one, ice cream goreng, 4th is the bitter gourd soup, 5th one which is the last one i learnt last month which is biscuit, but i;ve forgotten what the step to do the dough. hehehe....
No.11 yea, I'm doing when i'm here, and i did save my syling in a mentos bottle and exchaange with the uncle that work in cafe... that's around RM25... PRo lehh ... muahaha
No.12 Yea, everyone who knows me will know how I laughed... is terrbling.... hehe
No.13 nope, not enough time to use don't talk sleep la..
No.14 yea, but only some of them... of course some la... good friends need only 1 , 2 and 3 might be too much ...
 No.15 Yea i did forget a lot of grieving moment before, after I met her here... (Thanks, God Jesus Christ, let me to meet her here... thanks for bringing me out of the sorrow moment. Ya, she also makes me to have a narcissism Leong ~ hehe) you already finished 5 out of 15!! WOW!!!!!!!!!! that's such a good success ... ya continue ba... Fight for your PSPM!!! Yup, i think i wont be free to update my blog until I finished my PSPM...

 So, it's time to stop here, alright... will tell what about me in the next post... ^_^ Hasta la vista...

2014 清单

Wow, happy new year!!!! XD already 10/1.2014 ... haha
ok... nothing to do recently XD Computer+ing till late night .. shoooo tired now ... cz nw is late night already XD

ok...

蓦然回首，我在去年好像什么也没有做到就这么样潦潦倒倒，懵懵懂懂过了一年，好像过着行尸走肉的生活。 我想应该不只是去年吧！ＸＤ
好啦，今天突然间想到这段话：
放下总比执著来的好啊！ XD
回想起当初的执著，现在的我还真是在笑着当年的我，并且向对当时的自己，傻子！
当时的我把简单思考的事，也当作难题来考虑，并且种种事也越想越麻烦~
我很想对你说：谢谢， 谢谢你当时没有接受我，并成就现在另一个风格的我，感谢你因为你教会我不是每一件事情都像小时候那么样，一说要就会马上得到，等到对那个东西的感觉逐渐减少了，就把它扔到一边去，也谢谢你改变了我！

其实你的出现把我小学的傲气，骄傲的样子给彻底的改变了～　

当然，你的出现让我现在开始要答应自己好好照顾自己，因为只要自己把自己照顾好后，我就能够减少地球上人类之间出现的问题。

所以，在这个　２０１４　年里面，我答应自己最少都要完成　２５　样东西

那个ｌｉｓｔ　是这样的：

１．　１２．３０　前睡觉
２。　每天至少喝够　４　ｌ　的水
３。　不要把自己的东西给别人制造麻烦
４。　不要再想世上只有自己才能相信，因为还有“朋友”这个东西
５。　把之前堆在书厨的书本看完
６。　把小提琴练好来　ＸＤ　　（靠女啊？ 哈哈）
7。      限定自己一年能够吃20 次快餐罢了
8。      学会左手写字
9。      学会弹钢琴
10。    养成储蓄习惯
11。    学会煮饭（至少10 道）XD
12。    开心时，就大声笑，让人觉得你是sot 的那种 （哈哈）
13。    累时，立马休息，不要拖
14。    的空就关心下朋友？
15。    忘记之前的伤悲吧

想不到了，暂时15个先吧！

差不多了，我该睡觉了~

buenas noches y hasta la vista...

The time after SPM

     

     Yea~ After a difficult fight that make me struggle .. I din't have anything to do....However, I went to gathering yesterday :D There was much fun and happy because we all talking about our childhood's secret ROFL... muahahahahhaa................ especially those boys~ all shy shy deh share their secret @.@ haha...

I hope we would have a better gathering next time :)  

Oh ya... really feel much boring after the hardship.... always stay at home and only face to computer and television really thought that i'm a lazy person as i was doing nothing at home ...

Eat, drink, play , sleep ^~^ Later become fat already not lengzaii anymore OH MY GOSH~ 

So, nothing to do also need to sleep one mah~ ....... then, i must sleep now because i'm shoooooooooooo tired todayy

Nice Dream? Yea .. I hope so :D

感谢篇~

Spm 来临了，
我愿我能尽我能力，
不愿辜负父母望，
我愿主能赐我智慧，
不愿临时乱自阵，
我愿我能坦然面对，
不愿逃避此现实，
虽然不能做到最好，
但愿你与我能考得优越。


     在考国语，英语 和 历史时，我 一直 一直 以真诚的心 向 主 耶稣 祷告。
     他就好像在听着我的祷告，使我能够以平静的心面对我的考题。无论那是难题还是容易的题目，我都能够迎刃而解。所以，在此我想感谢主。
    谢谢你，谢谢你 能够与我一起度过我最艰难的时刻。感谢你，主。我爱你，主。
           这祷告是奉主耶稣圣命启， 啊门。